Anonymous asked:

Sending you lots of love and prayers. Hope your day turns around friend.

Thank you so much. It means a lot to me! <3

There is a sweetness about morning window light shining through these curtains.

Life is too hard today.

Anonymous asked:

You use to be a politics major?

It was my focus for a bit, yep. I switched to business and biblical studies after a while though. I didn’t really want to do anything with politics as I got older. Politics are certainly important, but I knew it really wasn’t the avenue that would allow me to be the person I was supposed to be. :)

Anonymous asked:

does ryan ever read the beautiful things you write about him on here? they are just so wonderful and full of love and beautifully written i think anyone would be honored to have them, but i know he doesn't have a tumblr so maybe not? god bless you, you kind woman.

Haha, yes, he sometimes reads them. But we also both understand that putting sweet stuff on the internet means nothing if it isn’t lived out in a real and raw way. So we make sure we tell each other our feelings in real life way more than on social media….so most of what I write on here is just a reflection of the things we tell each other in real life. (he is the sweetest guy in the whole wide world and, though he does not have a tumblr, he lives his love for me in such a selfless, real life way. I am so honored to be his wife.)

Anonymous asked:

Did you ever have trouble keeping God at the center of your focus throughout all your years with Ryan? Did you ever have to battle idolatry?

Hmm, not really. I struggle with lots of things (worry, anxiety, lol) but valuing Jesus over Ryan has not been a main struggle for me. I am so blessed and in awe that I get to live my life with Ryan…. but Ryan’s love for me gives me so much more insight into Jesus’ deeper love that came before any other love. So I would have to say that Ryan has also done such a wonderful job allowing himself to merely be a pointer to how Jesus loves me….and I am so thankful for that. :) <3

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Compassion hurts. When you feel connected to everything, you also feel responsible for everything. And you cannot turn away. Your destiny is bound with the destinies of others. You must either learn to carry the Universe or be crushed by it. You must grow strong enough to love the world, yet empty enough to sit down at the same table with its worst horrors.
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You have listened to fears, child,” said Aslan. “Come, let me breathe on you. Forget them. Are you brave again?
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Service Road in the Fog by AlexBurke on Flickr.


I tucked my chin into your shoulder, tears threatening through eyelashes closed. You love me. You never stop. I love you back but I can’t, can’t, can’t be enough. Every girl waits for a lifetime to find the one. You are the one. You were magic and light and fireworks. But I can’t, can’t, can’t make it work. I am too broken, and the jagged edges of myself cause you pain. Your pain hurts me more than anything. So I must leave, leave, repair, renew. Maybe one day, years down the road, I will find you again. You will look at me through older eyes, with experienced hands you will hold my face and tell me, it was always me. Because when you find that person, sometimes leaving, running, breaking, is the only way to save it. They always find you again. They follow the sound of your heart singing for them. 

reading old things i wrote about Ryan. to see all that happened and all we are now is such a funny puzzle piece of joy. love is so miraculous and has a way of stitching things together again and again and again.

Anonymous asked:

Remember when you told Tumblr you wanted to run away to Chicago? I kind of wish you had... I would have loved to meet you and helped you work through that season of life. You've come so far Chelsie. God is so good to you and you are so good to others. Remember that prophecy that lady gave you that you wrote about? Remember your bucket list? God has poured out so much grace. You are going places Chelsie Antos as the vessel and mouthpiece of Christ(:

Gosh, anon, you made my cry! I can’t believe you have been following me this long and remember all of that. I literally forgot about some of that stuff until I saw your ask. My goodness. I am literally crying. Thank you for reminding me. You are so kind hearted and wonderful. You have no idea how timely your ask was. Thank you for being around for so long and for your encouragement. It means so much to my heart. 

(oh and I am coming to Chicago next year…so maybe we will meet! <3)